I went to the beach this morning… but didn’t have it in me to take my walk on the beach. I didn’t walk all weekend. It was a weekend of quiet sadness that hung over the beach like a heavy fog.
We had a neighbor that lived in the apartment building across the street. His name was Jack. He was married and had two beautiful Afghan Hounds that he walked on the beach. My hubby also fished with him regularly. In Robert’s fishing adventures with Jack, he heard Jack talk about a new business venture in the shipping industry. Jack was bragging about being the top franchisee for several months. Then he was talking about a huge deal he was doing that was a shipment coming into New York. He started going up there to get ready for this massive shipment coming into the New York port. Then Robert asked me one day if I might want to call Jack to talk to him about maybe me helping him with some of the logistics problem he was having on this deal. Apparently, there were some issues with getting things really organized in New York on what was going where. I never called. I didn’t have time.
Last week, Jack hanged himself in his apartment. His wife found him. He left a long note apologizing and asking God and his wife to forgive him. He was too overwhelmed with the business chaos that he couldn’t seem to control. Jack was 56 years old.
There were no church services. Jack was cremated. My husband and couple of other paddleboarders took the ashes and spread them on the ocean where Jack spent some very happy times. Jack’s wife asked Robert if he would “say some words”. Apparently, when they were talking about arrangements, my husband’s name came up as “a Godly man”.
It has been a tragedy. There are no easy answers or simple truths that make the pain go away.
Oftentimes when we talk about tragedy, we always say, “Go hug your loved ones”. Today, I ask you to look beyond that comfortable nest of love that we all enjoy. Reach out not with just a friendly hello to that someone you know only as an acquaintance, but somehow see if there is a way you can let somebody you barely know that there is a wonderful world out there. Let them know there is hope.